BLUE COUP D’ETAT

The effect that this shift has on me is akin to a nervous satisfaction, a glimmer of falsehood attached to all situations. Something like the sense of ducking under a wave and holding your breath patiently until you can’t stand it anymore and you struggle through any amount of force for a breath. Things are just piling up around me and I don’t care but I look on in horror somewhere deep within myself, the body a prison and time flying by.